I’ve basically been offline for most of the last 36 hours because my CPU was overheating. It got up past 70 degrees celcius – very dangerous for a CPU. I tried cleaning the heat sink/cpu fan with compressed air last night, but that didn’t work. I went out to various computer stores today looking for a new cpu fan, but most were closed because it was Sunday, or they were sold out.
Thankfully I stopped by London Drugs on my way home they had a heavy duty fan. I’m back online with a CPU temp of between 45-50 degrees! woohoo!
It’s been a crazy weekend – getting the new site up, running around trying to get my computer working… argh… social life? blah. Maybe in September!
Another 4 day trip and we’re home again. We got an offer to go to a friends place on one of the gulf islands to hang out and do some photos and we couldn’t refuse such a generous offer.
It was lovely to spend some quiet time away from the city and go to the beach with Iggy. He was such a happy boy swimming in the big ocean. On the last full day I built a little sand castle. I’ll post a photo of it when it’s been imported into the computer. With Katt’s MA in psych and my own background in psychology we both sat down and looked at it like it was a ’sand box’ exercise. She thought it looked a bit like a womb – rather suggestive of my sexual frustrations lately. Interesting.
I guess being extremely horny all the time could be taken as sexual frustration. I do think that it would be good if I was a sluttier person that could do casual sex so I could release that energy, but it wouldn’t be being true to myself. It’s not an issue of Katt not being comfortable with it, in fact, she encourages me to meet a fuckbuddy, it is much more a matter of who I find attractive, the offers I get, my relctance to do hit and run sex, and being very careful around STD’s and safe sex.
I do keep my eyes and ears open. One never knows when a sexy curvy girl or smooth boy will come along that will capture my attention. I could use some kinky, rough, fantastic sex right about now.
And with that…
I went to the airport to pick the girl up, and now we’re all home again. We were thinking of going to visit some friends on one of the gulf islands tomorrow or Weds, but I don’t want to miss class this month, we have a photo shoot set up for tomorrow, and I want to go to the PNE before it closes.
I set up all the photo galleries for Katt’s new age play site today. The members area will be live on the 31st. I’m hoping it generates a lot of excitement.
It’s gym and swim day tomorrow and I’m looking forward to it. I missed class tonight as my class was unfortunately scheduled at the same time the girl’s flight got in so I am going to work extra hard tomorrow to make up for it. I’m starting to recognize people in the gym now. I always go on the same days and times so it’s neat to bump into the same people.
I onyl got one qeustion from my request for questions a few days ago. So sad. I’ll have to make some up so I have something more stimulating to write about than what I’ve done today. And with that, I’m off to ponder!
My new niece is beautiful! I got to meet her today and hold her for a while. It’s strange to think of my sister as a parent, but she’s certainly off to a good start with this little one! My niece is very small , amazingly quiet and her skin is so soft. I’m quite happy to be her only uncle; it means I can spoil her!
I heard from Katt tonight. She’s finished shooting in L.A. and I’ll be picking her up at the airport tomorrow evening. She seems to have had a good time.
It’s been interesting to have the place to myself for a few days. I’m generally a thoughtful person, but I tend to get even more so when I am alone. Mostly I ponder my social life, as nearly non existant that it is.
I have a great life – I have an amazing partner that I adore, I love my job, I have goals I’m working towards, a cute Iggy, my health, and more… The only area of my life I find lacking is my social life. It’s been challenging for me to get back into the swing of making new aquaintances and following through on getting to know people better.
I think I can seem aloof an uninterested to people I meet when I am indeed interested. I do become worried about being misinterpreted. Being the poly boy I am sometimes I worry that my interest in developing a friendship may be misinterpreted. It’s something I’ve come up against in the past when I’ve tried to connect with someone as a friend and the assumption was made that because I am polyamorous *and* male that my real motive for contacting them was because I was soley interested in them romantically or sexually.
Getting into another poly relationship is the very last thing I have on my mind.
I also have some huge trust issues. This boy has been burned so many times it’s amazing he’s not crispy on the outside – like double fried KFC! Yes, it’s tasty, but the roof of your mouth gets all sore and burned from trying to gum it! Hmm.. maybe not such a good analogy!
It would be cool to meet folks to hang with, share time and space with… you know… do friendly things. I’m actually a pretty friendly guy!
Militant Vegans
Circle I Limbo
General asshats
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind
haters, Rednecks
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow
Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies, Creationists
Circle IV Rolling Weights
Gray Davis, Democrats
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled
River Styx
Uday Hussein, Qusay Hussein
Circle VI Buried for Eternity
River Phlegyas
Osama bin Laden, Saddam Hussein
Circle VII Burning Sands
Republicans, Scientologists
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement
George Bush, The Pope
Circle IX Frozen in Ice
Design your own hell
It’s just iggy and I at home, Katt’s in L.A. getting ready for a fun weekend of shooting the HBO special. I went to the airport to see her off this afternoon and used the bus ride home as time to catch up on the new book I’m reading.
I did go to class tonight. I was thinking of skipping because Iggy had been alone for a few hours already, but I figured I shouldn’t be using him as an excuse to skip.
I have to remember to actually cook for myself. It’s easy to slip into ‘bachelor mode’ – ie) dashing to the corner store for chips, chocolate, and cola. Bad bad Wolfe. Doesn’t the saying go the only good Wolfe is a bad Wolfe? hmmm…
Tomorrow Iggy and I are going to go for a nice walk, and I may catch a movie in the afternoon. Sunday I go see my new niece. My sister just had her first child. She’s been wanting kids for a long time, so she’s really very happy. I’m happy too, both for her, and for the fact that I, hopefully, will no longer have my parents asking when to expect grand kids from us. Katt and I are childess by choice.
I’ve been watching the news a lot lately because of the fires raging throughout the province. I feel so sad for the people who have lost their homes due to the fires in B.C. So far hundreds and hundreds of homes have been destroyed. It’s pretty scary. The provincial government has closed down most of the hiking trails and provincial parks because of the fire danger.
I have problems with this posting system – sometimes I’ll click a link in another window and it voerwrites what I’ve written in my journal window, and when I go back to the jounrla page, everything i have written is GONE. Everything I wrote today is toast. Fuck.
Regurgitation time…
Didn’t work out yesterday because I pulled my right bicep and it’s mucho sore. Have class tonight and hope we spar as I have some things I want to try. My whole body is pretty sore. I could use a major massage to get the blood flowing to the sore parts.
I’ve been drinking my protein shakes once or twice a day. I make a big jug in the morning and eat the leftovers in the evening if I get hungry. No more chalk.
Katt’s out of town for the weekend and Iggy & I are going to go see my family & new neice on Sunday, and relax and go to the beach on the other days. I have some work to do on the members area of Katt’s new age play site to get it ready for it’s grand opening on Sept 1st, so I’ll likely start that this weekend.
It’s still pretty darn warm in Vancouver. Iggy and I went to the beach for an hour today and by the time we got home my shirt was soaked through. I’d enjoy some rain about now for personal reasons as well as to refill the water reservoirs and dampen the forests to help with the fires raging in B.C.
Time to have a quick bite and make my way…
Still not feeling too swift today. I did go to class though. Other than being really tired and having a hard time breathing, I felt okay. We did some light sparring today too, and I felt okay about that. I need to practice on my boxing guard so I get hit on the noggin less (getting hit to the body doesn’t hurt much). I also need to work on my footwork and ducking. I may go to a boxing class tomorrow evening depending on how I feel.
This connects to Peter’s question. How does it feel the instant I land a blow while fighting.
A damn sight better than it does the instant I get hit. It’s all about hitting the other person more than they hit me. If I am in a serious fight, say in a match of some kind, my focus is on ending the fight as soon as possible by knocking the other person out, or damaging them enough so that they cannot continue. If I’m in friendly sparring then I focus on fixing my mistakes and getting hit less than I hit the other person. Gently, of course, because it’s friendly!
In general it’s all about increasing my skill. I spar to improve. I fight in matches to improve. I’m a real believer that when you are a martial artist, you need to use the techniques in a sparring situation, friendly ones especially, in order to be able to become proficient and able to defend yourself. Bags and targets don’t hit back, and if the first time someone hits you back is in a self defense situation, I don’t believe that you will be as well prepared as you would if you’ve been hit before and know how to stay mentally focussed and confident. It’s shocking to be hit. Your vision jogs around, your head throbs, and if you are not prepared it can be very traumatic psychologically.
If you have already been knocked in the noggin you know that the disorientation only lasts a fraction of a second and that afterwards you’re okay. You’ve survived. If you’ve experienced it in class, it’s less likely to make you panic and freeze up if someone attacks you on the street.
In a street situation, one of the main factors that will determine your ability to survive is your ability to remain calm and focussed. The moment you panic or freeze up, you are at the attackers mercy.
In 20 years I have never had to defend myself from someone on the street and I’m incredibly happy about that. If I never have to, then I’ve been successful. In most situations that arise staying calm and thinking and talking your way out of a situation is always the first and best option. Don’t be afraid to run. Your number one priority is survival.
Oh yes.. I’m opening the floor to questions. Feel free to ask me anything. No subject too risquee.
I feel gross today. I’m congested, have an incredibly sore throat and swollen glands. And on top of it all, I’m REALLY grumpy and restless.
I did go to the beach with Iggy today. He had a very good time. I also did a few loads of laundry and did a tiny bit of cleaning in the kitchen and up around the computer desks.
I made myself a shake in the morning and it didn’t taste like chalk. I feel pretty good about that.
I heard back from a jiu-jitsu school and I’m going to check them out next week if I can find the time. Next week is really busy for us. Photo shotos every day of the week, then katt flies out on Friday for 4 days. I have heard of the cocoon gym before, but it seems a little too gentle for me. The place I’m looking in to seems to be pretty in depth in terms of learning and sparring, which is right up my alley. No pain, no gain.
I bought myself some raspberry juice so I’m going to pour myself a glass and watch a movie on TV tonight.
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