I’m just upstairs briefly taking a rest while Katt finishes photographing our friend bandia. Bandia wanted her head shaved so she very graciously offered to let us shave her head and take photos of it for HeadShave. I took the first 300 or so photos of Katt cutting off bandia’s hair and then clippering it, and now they are doings some apres shave shots.
After a brief return downstairs I’m back. I took photos of the girls putting on and taking off some wigs. Now we’re going to go for dinner and do some more photos during and afterwards.
I’m trying to give my back a rest at the moment. I’ve had pretty severe back pain all day today, and on and off over the last 10 days. In the last few days I’ve started taking some muscle relaxants but thus far they’ve not worked as well as I hoped. I’m pretty sure I’ve pinched a nerve. I’m good to my back, so I don’t expect that I’ve got any disc damage or anything, but I am going to go talk to my family Dr. anyways. Very likely she’ll tell me to take a course of msucle relaxants and not do anything strenuous when my back hurts, which I don’t anyways, and continue to work out and yada yada yada.
Off to eat.
I had the most delicious time on Tuesday! We had arranged for tanuki to come over for a photoshoot where she was going to dress a cross dresser up, but the crosdresser cancelled so we changed the shoot into a saran and duct tape shoot. She’s such an agreeable girl! I wrapped tanuki up with pallet wrap and saran, and then used black duct tape to completely mummify her from ankle to shoulders. Once she was wrapped up I turned her on her belly and cut an access hole to her bottom and I caned her for about 45 minutes. Ok, I’ll admit it, I have a little crush. I saw photos of her bruises tonight – very nice!
How can you tell you’re a sadist? You have a permanent grin and get a raging hard on while mummifying and caning an attractive and sweet woman until her bottom is red and bruised. Yup.
We have plans to go to a play party on the weekend. I’ve got a full dance card. I’m going to play with tanuki and then I’m going to play with katt. It will be a fun night.
I saw Kill Bill 2 today. I enjoyed it a lot more than the first. There was less gore and more story, which I appreciated. It was a well imagined story with interesting cinematography.
Life is good!
I got a lot accomplished today! I woke up, did 2 loads of laundry and then cleaned the condo. Then I went for coffee with tanuki. I had a great time chatting with her over a beverage and a chocolate chip cookie. I like tanuki, she’s intelligent and very open, which I really enjoy. She also squirms in her chair when we talk about abduction scenes and knife play, which is an endearing trait! Thinking of that, I put another photo gallery of our play session up today on DominAction!.
After we parted I started doing website work. I upgraded the spam filters on the web server to the latest versions and I looked for new ways of improving server performance. I’m such a geek! I’ve spent the last few hours of the evening advertising BiWolfe. I’m hoping I can get some more traffic to BiWolfe. The feedback I’ve gotten recently suggests that the photos are good quality and they are appealing, so I just have to figure out how to get the people to see them. I’m sure getting naked on cam more frequently might help!
I wanted to do a shoot tonight, but we left it too late. Katt suggested we do a shoot where I’m jacking off blindfolded, but being blindfolded isn’t my thing. I like my site to reflect my interests and my personality and jacking off blindfolded isn’t something I’d ever do.
And now I’m getting ready for bed.
Good night!
This article will give you some background on what I’m talking about.
As a person that makes and sells alternative art/porn I’ve been watching the fallout from the porn actors in the US that have been diagnosed with HIV carefully. The health dept in L.A. is trying to regulate the porn industry now so that all actors have to wear condoms in any sex shoot and the porn indistry is bitching because they feel they’ll lose money and will have to move out of country to a place that is less regulated. How fucked up is that?! It’s about freaking time they made everyone wear condoms!
I’ve always believed that any person involved in explicit shoots that involve bodily fluids should be wearing condoms (with the exception of fluid bonded partners). I’m not a fan of mainstream porn at all because a) the people involved are actors and have no connection other than business with each other b) unsafe sex is not sexy, and c) the bottom line comes down to $$$. There is something intrisically wrong with an industry that cares more about money than about the health of their employees.
Safer sex has a lot of negative stereotypes that we’ve got to get past as a culture, especially in a society where a disease like HIV/AIDS exists. I’d like to see more portrayals of safer sex as hot, sexy, and fun, rather than as a chore.
Our sites could be a lot more financially successful if we were willing to have sex with random people just to get content. Swinger sites and multiple partner sites are wildly popular. But thats not us and it’s not what we want to accomplish with our websites. Thus far the only interactive sex content we have is on BBW and is of me and Katt and what we show is what we live. I like porn where you see two (or more) people that actually have chemistry with each other that are really into each other. It makes the images so much more interesting. I’m just not interested in having sex with someone just for the sake of photos. If there’s chemistry then I might be willing, but why bother to get it up for someone that doesn’t turn me on?
I’ve only done sex photos with one other person, my ex kitty, about 3 years ago and that was in the context of a long term poly relationship. While I’m not opposed to doing sex shoots with other people there would have to be certain things in place first at the bare minimum; friendship, trust, chemistry, and safer sex activities. And we all know what a picky man I am so who knows when that will happen!
With any couples that want to pose for us in the future I’d really like to do safer sex shoots, even if they are fluid bonded, for the simple reason that I want to show safe sex as sexy. I’d like to have people look at the photos and get turned on by looking at condoms and dental dams. Our culture has to start bringing safer sex into our consciousness as a sexy activity somewhere, and I’ve always thought the best place to start in my own front, and back, yard.
We’re really trying to reclaim the whole concept of porn to fit into our view of what responsible and sexy porn should be. All of the people that model for us choose what kinds of photos they want to do and they can veto pictures they don’t like from showing up on the sites. Nobody is ever asked to do something they are uncomfortable with. And while I’ve been attracted to some of our models the environment I always present is totally safe and respectful. We always use safewords in our BDSM shoots. The safety and comfort of the people that choose to model for us is our #1 concern. Safe, sane, and consensual, always!
Making porn should be safe and fun! When people are having fun it always comes across in their photos. I’ve had people write to me and ask why I’m smiling in the BDSM photos I’ve been in. They feel it doesn’t looks as real because I am smiling. Well, if you’ve ever seen me play, I *always* smile and laugh! I want to capture what I really feel, not ape something for the camera – what would be the point in doing it if I wasn’t having fun? None.
Katt and I have been wanting to do some more photos of the two of us all entangled and intimate, but we’ve got no remote and a very short tripod, so we are dependant on a third party to photograph us, which we don’t have at the moment. If we do photos ourselves and have to hold the camera while being all entangled the photos end up looking too amateurish and we can’t get both of us in the photo at the same time. So either we have to invest in a bigger tripod and a remote, or ask one of our friends to sacrifice some time to take photos of us. Hmmm…
Ok, so the billing company we use has made some changes that we have to complu with by May 31st. I intensely dislike these changes, but if we want to continue doing business with them we have to comply.
As of May 31 all members buttons will no longer be linked directly to our members area, they will link to the website www.ticketsclub.com, where members will then enter their usercode and passcode, and then be sent BACK to the members area of our sites, where they will have to re-enter their username and passcode yet again.
This presents a number of problems, the first being that Members will be wondering why the fuck they just got sent to a different website when they clicked the member button for OUR sites. The next problem is that Members will have to enter their usercode and passcode TWICE to get to where they want to be. The final problem is that they open up our our member area within their frames. I’ve since come across a remedy for this, but just the fact that they are trying to do that is grossly inapproproate.
I’m quite steamed about this. Options are becoming increasingly limited unless we choose to outlay many thousands of dollars to our biller to pay for the priviledge of members having direct access to our members area. It’s a pain in the ass.
I have thought about going with a new biller, but that also presents problems if my old biller requires all member buttons to go to their stupid little website since I don’t want my original members to have to resign up again at a new place. it could mean a lot of lost business and many years to recover.
The adult industry has really come under attack by the U.S. govt as well as by Visa. They are raising fees and making it almost impossible to run a successful small adult business.
Ah well. We’ll do what we need to do to keep our members as happy as we can, and hopefully some new options will come into play. It’s just a crappy situation for small adult businesses, and I get resentful of the assholes in the U.S. govt and at Visa that are screwing the small adult business owners over again and again and again.
Enough ranting. We’re here and we’re not going anywhere. I’ll fight tooth and nail.
The Canucks just proved that they actually don’t suck as bad as I expected. They scored with 5 seconds left to make it to OT 
I filled out another useless survery.
It’s down below.
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| Abortion?: |
I am pro-choice. |
| Death Penalty?: |
I think (state sanctioned) murder is abhorent, though I believe anyone sentenced to life for a violent crime should be given the option of state assisted suicide. |
| Prostitution?: |
legalize it already, tax it, and offer proper health care. |
| Alcohol?: |
I like it in moderation. |
| Marijuana?: |
Hate the stuff, but believe people should be able to put whatever they want into their body so long as it does not impact directly on the people aroud them. |
| Other drugs?: |
same as above, but I think the government should be the one doling out the drugs and offering proper treatment programs so that folks who want off it actually have a chance. |
| Gay marriage?: |
Absolutely! |
| Illegal immigrants?: |
Why deny someone that obviously needs a home and a better life. |
| Smoking?: |
Can’t stand it. If it were up to me people wouldn’t be able to smoke in *any* public place. |
| Drunk driving?: |
Sometimes people make mistakes, and ones that don’t cause
injury or death I thin can be forgiven on a first offense. If anyone is injured or happens on to a second offense
then they should never be allowed to drive again. if they kill
someone they should be put in jail and given mega counseling. |
| Cloning?: |
I’ve always wanted to clone myself, but at this stage of human development it’s a BAD idea. I’m all for stem cell research though. |
| Racism?: |
I am against prejudice of any kind. There’s only one race, human kind. |
| Premarital sex?: |
Absolutely. Try before you buy. Better sex education would be a bonus for children and teens so that they can make educated and informed choices. |
| Religion?: |
Religion and state should be separate. I don’t have anything positive to say about religion. |
| The war in Iraq?: |
Evil. |
| Bush?: |
Evil. |
| Downloading music?: |
I like it, personally. |
| The legal drinking age?: |
Lower it and give
people more responsibility for their choices. Prohibiting something often makes it more appealing and apt for misuse. |
| Porn?: |
I make
porn for a living. I make the kind of porn that I like to watch,
consensual activities between people that care for each other. Some
porn is crappy, some porn takes advantage of the actors and actresses, and
I think that is awful. I think more people need to make GOOD porn
that is respectful of people and their choices that is not motivated
purely by $$$. |
| Suicide?: |
That’s an emotionally charged issue for me given that my partner attempted suicide 3 years ago. No comment as of yet. |
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I went and saw the punisher yesterday. The fellow who plays the Punisher is hot. He kind of reminds me of a young Christopher Lambert. I’ve always actually liked Christopher Lambert, probably due to the fact that I like his voice and I liked the first chatacter I ever saw him play, Connor MacLoud in the Highlander. Theer’s nothing quite so cool as a guy with a scottish accent weilding a japanese sword fighting a large pierced Russian.
In other news, my mouse hacked up some goo from the wheel that sort of looked like belly button lint. I’m not sure how it got in an optical mouse.. but now that it is gone the wheel works much better.
I was reading g.girls’ journal today where she brought up the topic of honesty in regards to being an online journaler. It got me to thinking about journaling and my take on it, which I actually think about a lot.
Traditionally, journaling has been a very private process. It’s only in the last few years that online journals have really become popular. With the transition from a self focused journal to one that is accessible to anyone on the internet, potentially hundreds of millions of people, the same unwritten social rules we all follow when interacting with people have now come into play with our journals. There’s also the aspect of privacy. How much is too much information to give in a public arena? Will something I write come back and bite me in the ass?
In my case it has a number of times. I haven’t stopped writing, but I do think about what I write in relation to more public aspects of my life, including the people in it. Keeping the privacy of others in mind is hugely important, as is making sure that I’m not speaking for them/putting words in their mouths when I write something.
The great thing about a public journal is it allows us to connect with different people with similar interests as our own. It’s a fabulous networking tool. It gives us a voice in the wilderness when we feel isolated and apart from the world. It allows us to express our ideas and our selves in a way we couldn’t up until the age of the internet, to a potentially huge and diverse audience. And with that voice comes the feedback from using that voice. As often as there are people who will agree with the opinion of a writer there are people that are not going to like what a writer has to say. It can be a fine balance to determine just how much praise/shit you are willing to take for having an opinion.
There can be an aspect of soul baring to online journal writing. How vulnerable do I actually want to be when I write in my public journal? I don’t say anything in my online journal that I wouldn’t say to a group of people. That’s my own comfort level with journaling. In my case I happen to have a very broad comfort zone as to what I am comfortable talking about either one on one or with a group of people. My belief is that by being open, honest, and accepting about who I am, I am helping the world to be a more open, honest, and accepting place. I am willing to accept the shit that occasionally comes my way because I am strong enough to deal with it. MY feelings of worth are determined by how I feel about me, not by how other people feel about me. I’ve dealt with much worse in my life than anything anyone could ever dish out to me. I have faith in myself.
It doesn’t matter if I don’t have all the answers. What matters is being genuine, and having the courage to continue asking questions.
I have the benefit of not needing to comform to societal standards. I didn’t when conformity was expected either, which is one of the reasons I worked hard to get to the position I am now. I don’t have the risk of losing a job (I did lose a job 4 years ago for running an adult website), I don’t have the risk of losing my position in my community. I don’t have to worry about losing my family (I was disowned twice and they eventually came around).
I get letters every so often from people that read my journal that comment on how brave they think I am being for being open about my sexuality, spirituality, and lifestyle. It’s really not about bravery – it’s about survival. In order to survive as a whole intact person I have chosen to live my life a particular way. It makes me sad that people try to fit a round peg into a square hole so much of the time.
Conformity is overrated.
It is liberating to walk into a room and have all your cards on the table without shame.
Shame is definitely overrated.
This a bit of a catch up entry, and a shout out to Jodie. I got your message late. Sorry to have missed you! I’ll make sure to give you a dingle when I’m in Victoria next.
Back to the subject of birthdays. I actually find birthdays rather anticlimactic. No matter how much fun I have over my birthday, I’m always disappointed that they’re over so fast. If it were up to me people would lavish me with copious amounts of attention at least 3 out of every 7 days. The remaining 4 days would be my hermitage time. Actually, denning is a better word. It’s one of the reasons I don’t mind living in a small place. Our condo is very den like in some ways. The bed upstairs is pretty sweet. Nice blankets, soft, good place to curl up and read a book. Of course I don’t mind company either while I den. Depending on how interactive the company wants to be it can move from denning to something else. But hey.
The photos from our shoot with Tanuki and Jade turned out awesome. Here are a few photos from my play session with Tanuki. They’ll be going up on Dominaction this week.
I tried to upgrade my server the other day but ran into a weird dependency issue for glibc on linux. Upgrading the server has less to do with wanting to increase performance for me, because the server kicks ass and does a good job as is. I just like to play. I like to learn and try new things and when a new challenge like that presents itself I try to learn as much as I can. eventually I’ll figure out this dependencey issue and try again, but for now I’ll continue to learn more before I fiddle again.
I’ve taken the last two weeks off of training. I’ve still been dreadmilling every day and lifting some weights, but I’ve been avoiding putting too much stress on the nasty bad hamstrings. It’s all about maintenance right now with the dreadmilling. I want to at least maintain my cardio so that when I go back I don’t suck. I hate sucking. I’ll go back next week either way, I’ll just avoid anything with my legs that is too strenuous.
I’ve been trying to get out to see Hellboy since it came out a week or two ago, buyt I keep getting distracted. Anyone want to go on a Hellboy date? I need a movie fix! The book was great, so I’m hoping the movie is as good or better. I’ve always liked Ron Perlman, so I have high hopes.
I keep meaning to write something insightful and witty, but I keep getting sidetracked. Maybe later!
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