I’m glad I’m not making porn in China!

Ξ September 30th, 2004 | → 0 Comments | ∇ General |

I just read This Story on Yahoo.

“China’s legislature rubber stamped a regulation earlier this month that allows courts to sentence violators to up to life imprisonment for spreading pornography on the Internet.”

I guess I should remember never to take any pornographic pictures if I ever visit China. I wonder if the Chinese officials would imprison visiting westerners if they found out they were pornographers. Makes me wonder.

Reading a story like this makes me really glad I live in Canada. I am continually amazed at how far behind the curve some countries are in relationship to sexuality and freedom of expression. In my opinion porn, or at least the porn I make, is a form of artistic expression. Unfortunately, different countries have different values which are often created and enforced by governments in order to control the population more effectively.

One of the issues facing businesses in the adult industry right now in North America is that many companies don’t want it known that they are involved with porn in some way or another. Visa & Mastercard process transactions for porn, and many of the banks that are associated with billing companies are trying to release porn vendors from being able to process transactions. Hotels in the US and Canada make millions on in room porn channels. In some ways it could be a media relations nightmare for these companies, but they sell it because it makes money, and money is their bottom line. Multinational corporations don’t want to be associated with porn for some reason.

Even though we’re fairly progressive in North America, there is still a strong anti-porn sentiment. I think it goes deeper than people being anti-pornography, I think it reflects a deep discomfort surrounding sexuality in general. There is a huge religious movement against pornography in both the US and Canada. I wish that the movement was against BAD porn rather than porn in general.

I’ll be the first to say that there is some god awful porn out there, and that there are some very shady characters in the porn business that take advantage of the folks that work for them. Thankfully the opposite is also true. There are people out there, like us, that create porn that is empowering, safe, sane, and consensual.

Unfortunately, groups crusading against porn do not differentiate between consensual, artistic, empowering porn, and the crappy degrading kind. The general consensus with anti-porn groups is that any woman in porn is being degraded and any man in porn is degrading the women in porn. There is also a feeling that porn is harmful to people who watch it and that it will somehow make men more violent and women want to be degraded. I don’t get the rationale behind that myself. Every woman I know who has made porn, posed for photographs, or been involved in some way or another in the adult industry, is a strong, self assured, confident woman that all express that they find posing for photos an empowering process. I rather think they’d be offended if someone told them they were being oppressed when they had photos taken of them.

On the subject of sexuality in general, I think it would be a wonderful thing if less people repressed themselves and spent more time exploring their sexuality and indulging in selfish acts of self fufillment. If people spent as much time making love, jerking off, and creating wonderful sexual energy instead of sending people to foreign countries to bomb innocent civilians, we’d have a much happier world.

Priorities people.

I can think of many things that these groups could focus on that DO need to have attention brought to them.

1) AIDS – It’s the biggest health crisis of our time. Prevention and finding a cure should be a huge priority.

2) Poverty and homelessness – How many people in your neighborhood live below the poverty line? Do you know? Don’t you think food and shelter take priority over a crusade agaisnt porn?

3) Health Care – Providing health care, both physical and mental, to everyone should be a huge priority. Equal emphasis should be places of physical illness as well as mental health.

4) Education – Education is a huge one. Everyone deserves equal access to a good education.

5) War – In my mind there is never a justification to start a war of aggression. Ever. Period. There can be justification to defend yourself, however. I think the money spent of defense and wars could be much better spent.

Really, it’s all about priorities. We live in a world where people are starving in the same city, where people are homeless, where people become addicted to drugs, where people commit violence against one another. These are the things that people should get a bug in their asses about.

Two (or more) people making love, fucking, or consensually engaging in whatever their kinks are is a beautiful thing.

 


Ξ September 29th, 2004 | → 0 Comments | ∇ General |

On the heels of my earleir post on clothing, I stopped at the shopping centre downtown on my way home from my Dr’s appointment and did some browsing. I picked up a pair of pants for half price. I also took a look for a new winter coat. I tried on one out of 5 that I saw that I liked. I didn’t bother trying the other ones on because they were a tad expensive and I don’t get paid until next week. I love wool coats. I’m thinking I may splurge this year and get a nice black one.

I also stopped in a high end store just to see what they had that was different from all of the other stores in the mall. Armani has some beautiful clothing I have to admit, but there’s no way I’m going to spend $175 on what is essentially a t-shirt. So expensive. I’ll stick with my current shopping style. I’ll continue to browse the sales racks and look for good deals on sexy clothes.

My current goal is to find a button up shirt with a short collar. I am not so keen on the traditional collar, but I really like the short asian style collars.

And with that, I’m off to get ready to work out.

 


orange

Ξ September 29th, 2004 | → 0 Comments | ∇ General |

HASH(0x8bf5150)

You’re orange. You’re strong and have the reflexes
of a tiger. You’re overly protective, and
those skills come in handy… You’re a natural
person, with a taste for natural foods (I mean
organic, here.). Well, that’s not true.
…Just food in general! You’re as
quick-witted as your reflexes, and sometimes
painfully logical. You love wild animals and
pets. (Preferably wild animals!) You’re a
natural person, and a true child of Gaia.
You’re a stimulating, and outgoing person. You
enjoy making people think, especially with your
infectiously spontaneous attitude. You’re a
generally optomistic person, with a love for
showing off all of your good traits. Although
many people may see you as strung-out, or just
plain weird, you’re very down-to-earth and
humble. You’re incredibly sweet (as this
color’s other name!), and you care about people
in general. As this color would describe,
you’re energetic beyond all human
comprehension. You’ve got a nack for drawing,
and you enjoy it, too. When it comes to
school, you’re a good listener with an even
better memory. You’re studious… At least
when you need to be!

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Strangely enough orange is one of my favorite colours. I have two orange sweaters and an orange shirt. I’d say it’s the most prominent colour in my wardrobe along side of black and light blue. One of the reasons I like it so much is because it’s such an energetic colour. I’ve started experimenting over the last few years as to different colours in my wardrobe. For so many years it was black, black, and some more black.

On the subject of men and clothing. One of the huge things I see with men is that men often wear clothes that are too baggy and don’t fit them properly. I was guilty of this myself. I’m 6′2″ and 210lbs and I always figured that because I was a big framed guy that I needed XL shirts and baggy pants. Errrrr.. not. I am quite slim so I usually wear a medium shirt though sometimes I have to go for large. The biggest thing I’ve learned about going clothes shopping is that if I don’t try things on I don’t get a good idea of how things really look on me. Sometimes things look great (or bad) on the rack and if I don’t try it on I could be doomed to get home and realize the cut of the clothing really sucks. And alternately if I see something on the rack that I might not normally try, I try it anyways because of the off chance that it may actually look really good.

The moral of the story, kiddies, is to try new things and don’t be afraid!

 


fixed!

Ξ September 28th, 2004 | → 2 Comments | ∇ General |

I fixed my journal problems. All of my old entries are now working again. I’m so smart!

I’ve decided to apply for a job that I think is somewhat up my alley. It’s low stress, pays well, and is on call work. I’m getting very cabin fevery and I think that it has a negative impact on my relationship with Katt and on my general mood and frame of mind. I don’t need to work outside the home to support myself anymore, but the extra money will definitely come in handy. It would allow us to pay off our mortgage that much quicker and give us a head start on saving up for our B&D B&B. We would also be able to do some renovations in our home, like putting in proper flooring, and STORAGE! You have no idea how much we need storage. And maybe, just maybe, I could get a car again. So tomorrow I go get some paperwork done I need for my application, and I mail it off.

Now, on to something more interesting – porn!

We’ve decided to make videos again. Video is what sells. Photos are just not as interesting to people anymore. Folks want movement! When you run member based websites member retention is just as important as getting new members. To keep your members you have to have lots of exciting content and stay abreast of the lastest developments. We hope that by adding video content that we’ll make our members happier and they’ll stay longer as a result.

We’re looking into purchasing a camcorder and getting some proper photo lighting and making some fun porn. We’ve got so many sites now that it’s going to be a huge job to keep up with making content for all of them, but I think we’re up to the task. Once we’re not downtrodden with our colds we’re going to schedule a tonne of photo and video shoots. It’s exciting! We’re not in a huge rush though. We have lots of work to do on our existing sites before we expand yet again, otherwise it’ll be a constant game of catch up.

 


old entries seem to have dissappeared

Ξ September 28th, 2004 | → 0 Comments | ∇ General |

I was looking through old entries today and it seems that 140 of my early entries got deleted somehow. I’ve tried to upload my backups, but when I rebuild the entries to conform to the new journal appearance, all of the entries from 1-140 are deleted again.

It pisses me off. I’ve put in a question to the folks that make greymatter with the hope that they will have a solution. I don’t want to lose those entries dammit.

 


sigh

Ξ September 26th, 2004 | → 0 Comments | ∇ General |

Some days I want to move out of the city so badly. Today is one of those days. Right now I want to sell my home, pack up, grab my girls, and get the fuck out of the city and go somewhere peaceful and quiet. Alas, this is going to have to wait. There are still things I have to do in the city, and to sell the condo now would be a dumb thing to do considering property values will go up between now and the 2010 olympics.

I think I’m dealing with low level depression again. I am not sleeping well, I am always tired, I have very little energy, I can’t focus on anything, and I’m agitated and easily cranky. Any time I fantastize about escaping from the city, I know something is up. The worst part is that I have a hard time sitting down and relaxing. If I try to read I can’t focus on the book. If I try to watch a movie I get restless and have to move around.

Realistically leaving the city would not be beneficial in many ways. Finding a psychiatrist for Katt in the city will be easier than in the country, I can’t finish my training in the country, all my friends are in the city, all my models are in Vancouver, etc etc. It’s just not the right time to go anywhere yet. I think realistically moving may be an option in 2009. By that time I should have a few businesses going, my training will have progressed to the point I want it to, and we should financially be able to purchase property that we can set up to have lots of guests and sleep overs.

I am going to continue along with my plans. I actually have a 1 year plan and a 5 year plan. Within 1 year I will open a new kind of business that is not internet related. Of couse I will keep the websites running and expanding them. In 5 years I want to purchase property (10-100 acres) for a B&D B&B. I want a farm with lots of animals (human and otherwise) where I can build my dream home and build a resort for kinky alternative people to go on vacation. A full dungeon, hot and cold running maids, cabins equipped with anchor points, and proper stables. I have a 10 year plan too. Part of my 10 year plan is to scale back my direct involvement in porn. I don’t think I’ll want to keep modeling in 10 years. I’ll focus more on photography and have someone else do all of the site upkeep and maintenance so I don’t have to.

I would really like to have my home organized and sparky clean. One of my stressors is the entire lack of space to put things in our small home. Within an hour after I clean it is messy. Katt and I keep talking about doing some home improvements but those are low on the priority list compared to other things. I’ve started a small savings to see if we can save up enough to put hardwood laminate flooring in the loft. I’ve decided that I can install it myself, which will save about 55% as compared with getting it installed.

Anyways, my cold seems to be getting better. I’m breathing a little clearer today and I have a little more energy. I’m going to get ym ass in gear on monday and start working on the sites again. I’m just realizing that I have to do updates before I go to bed tonight too. So off to work I go.

 


got phlegm?

Ξ September 24th, 2004 | → 0 Comments | ∇ General |

I feel like crap. I’ve had a cold for the last 8 days that is characterized by some symptoms getting better only to be replaced with new symptoms. Of course old symptoms eventually come back as the cycle progresses. Today I am dealing with severe nausea. This is the first time I’ve been able to look at the computer screen all day without wanting to puke. I can’t stand feeling like I have to puke. I’ve gone 25 years without puking and I’m hoping to drag that out another 25 years!

As a result I haven’t gotten anything done at all work wise all week. I haven’t exercised either. I spent part of the weekend watching all of the Babylon 5 movies that M sent me last week. I bought myself the new Star Wars DVD set earlier in the week and I watched Episodes 4 and 5 with Tanuki yesterday. I’m a bit of a Star Wars fan. It was the first movie I ever remember seeing, period. I saw it in the Stanley Theatre in downtown Vancouver when it was still a movie theatre. The nice part about being sick is that I don’t have any guilt about spending the day in slouch clothes watching Sci Fi and indulging myself in one of those new fangled C2 Colas.

My original plan for the day was to do some cleaning, go downtown to the used book store, and exercise. I pretty much wrote most of that off when I woke up still sick. I did get a load of laundry done and I loaded the dishwasher. I’ll do the rest some other day when I don’t feel so queasy.

I will probably spend most of my evening cuddling the dogs and watching TV. I hope I feel better soon so that I can sit down and do some web work. I’m far behind where I want to be and need to spend some time catching up.

 


A new face

Ξ September 20th, 2004 | → 6 Comments | ∇ General |

As you can see, I’ve made a few changes to my journal. It now sits on it’s own domain, www.misterwolfe.com, and it has been changed to more accurately reflect my character. I’d been feeling for a while that my journal was a little to connected to my porn empire, and not connected enough to the rest of my life. So here it is. Don’t forget to book mark my new url, because I’ll only have the forwarding page up for about a month or so and then I’ll remove it.

The title graphic, “We move in the direction of our expectations…”, is one of my life philosophies. I truly believe that when we expect good things to happen and make conscious effort towards making good things happen, that they will happen. What qualities would we expect a person to have that expects good things to happen to them and moves forward positively in life? Self confidence, determination, belief in one’s self, and self esteem just to name a few. It’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately.

Now for something beyond my control. I’ve had a horrible cold for the last 5 days. It started on Thursday morning with a dry and irritated nose, and quickly progressed to a sore throat, coughing, excessive phlegm, and my favorite – a completely clogged nose. I ended up cancelling two photo shoots, one that was supposed to happen today, and one last Saturday. It wasn’t good timing to get sick as I’d already cancelled once with one of the models and I hate feeling unprofessional. Unfortunately, sick happens.

On the subject of photo shoots. I’m looking for female models that would like to be photographed for our website, Damsels in Danger. The shoot would involved being ’stalked’ by the home intruder/perv/bad guy (aka: me in a balaclava) and being taken down to the ground and tied up or some other such fun thing. If you’re interested just shoot me an e-mail.

And.. if you were wondering… why Mister Wolfe? I like it because it has various connotations. Mister Wolfe is at the same time has a neutral connotation, it can imply a d/s or power exchange dynamic, and it can imply an age play dynamic.

What time is it Mister Wolfe? Do you really want to know the answer to that question?

 


Funny quiz

Ξ September 17th, 2004 | → 0 Comments | ∇ General |

I took another quiz. Who’d a figured?

It’s quite accurate. The animals I most strongly identified with are Wolfe, Bear, and Raven, so I wasn’t surprised to get this.

Though all these quizzes are way too short and useless to give any true indication. As with anything it’s all about looking within and self awareness.

But hey, quizzes are fun!

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Bear Spirit Calls To You ~
Bear is spirit keeper of the West, the place of
darkness, maturity and good harvest. Bears are
active during the night and day. This
symbolizes its connection with solar energy,
that of strength and power, and lunar energy,
that of intuition. The bear holds the teachings
of introspection. When it shows up in your life
pay attention to how you think, act and
interact.

Bear’s Wisdom Includes:

*Introspection

*Healing

*Solitude

*Change

*Communication with Spirit

*Birth and rebirth

*Transformation

*Astral travel

*Creature of dreams, shamans and mystics

*Visionaries

*Defense and revenge

*Wisdom

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A good week!

Ξ September 17th, 2004 | → 1 Comments | ∇ General |

I’ve had a lovely week! On my daily sojourn to the mailbox on Wednesday morning I noticed a slip in my mailbox that said there was a parcel waiting for me at the post office. I thought it was likely my lawyer mailing back some forms to me or one of Katt’s friends mailing her something. It wasn’t! It was the Babylon 5 movie collection! Can we say idiot grin? My e-friend and sometimes editrix, M, had seen my recent post on how utterly geekified I am over Babylon 5 and ordered me a copy of the Movie collection through amazon. It made my month, it really did. It wasn’t that I was sent something, it was that someone I respect and like thought of me. Thank you again, M, very much!

I had my first ever physiotherapy session today. I have written before about my accumulation of injuries over the years and how they really seem to weigh on my body more and more lately. I took the step of finally taking 4 or 5 different Doctor’s recommendation to get physio. Today was basically diagnosing where my issues lie, and starting a treatment plan. Thus far: My pelvis is out of alignment; the right half of my pelvis is about an inch higher than my left. I have nerve issues in my lower back and the right leg. I also have way below average flexibility in my hips. Basically, the muscles in my body are not evenly balanced from side to side. My physiotherapist gave me a bunch of exercises to to do to bring my pevlis into alignment and help with the nerve issues. I also was given exercises to strengthen my inner core muscles. It seems I’m hard and crusty on the outside, and soft and gooey on the inside. I’ve been telling people that for years, but here’s the proof! It has gotten to the point where I have some level of back pain all day long. I am never without back pain, but it’s particularly bad when I lie in bed, when I walk, or when I sit down. Funnily enough when I am exercising heavily it doesn’t bother me. I am looking forward to working with the physiotherapist to get this under control. The physiotherapist says it’s fully treatable, so I am very encouraged. The last part of my session today was spent with 4 electrical suction thingies zapping my back. That was cool. I’m all for electrical zappy thingies zapping me.

So yes, I am quite happy to be getting my body pain dealt with. Anything that helps me be healthier (except cutting out beer, pie, and cola), I’m totally into doing.

More later!

 


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