Ξ May 23rd, 2005 | → Comments Off | ∇ General |
I might as well type, since I can’t talk. I started feeling sick a few days ago and it’s hit full force today. I’m hoping this is all there is because if it gets worse I might start complaining. It’s all in my chest and throat so far, so I can breathe fine. A small miracle indeed.
I did manage to take the dogs for 3 lovely walks today though. Being outside in the sun helped give me a little more energy, which I then used to clean the loft. It gets very dusty in our place with the concrete ceilings. I spent 45 minutes just dusting. I vaccumed, I wiped things down, and I put all the clothes away and even organized things a little.
Best of all, I made the bed!
I love my bed.
MMmmmmMm…. beeeeed.
Ξ May 21st, 2005 | → Comments Off | ∇ General |
So Katt’s computer stopped working for a while tonight. I looked over and saw it with the lovely emssage “Cannot find OS”. So I tried rebooting etc etc, and took out the HD’s and tried them in a different machine to see if they worked, the important drive did work, but the drive with the OS didn’t.
I put all the drives back in the machine and fogured I’d take it in to get fixed tomorrow, but I decided to power it up just in case. The damned thing works again. Fucking hard drive.
I’m going to invest in an external USB hard driev to use as a backup device. If the wrong drive had crashed today we’d have been out years of porn we’ve made. About tiem we back it up safely.
Ξ May 20th, 2005 | → Comments Off | ∇ General |
Revenge of the Sith was awesome. It was a great way to end the Star Wars Saga. There were a few things I didn’t like about the movie, mainly in regards to diminished roles for some of the main characters, but overall it was very well done.
I’m sad though. It’s the final star wars movie -ever-. I saw the first Star Wars when I was 6 years old at the Stanley Theatre. I remember walking out of the theatre filled with wonder and, of course, asking my parents whether the Jedi were real or not. I was a big star wars nut. I had the Episode IV bed sheets and all the toys, including my favorite, a Luke Skywalker action figure that had the retractable lightsaber built into the arm. Of course all of those toys were thrown away as I grew older, not realizing the potential value 25+ years later.
There’s a lot of nostalgia for me with this movie series and it’s sad to see it end. I still hope that episode 7, 8, & 9 will eventually be made, but it’s highly unlikely.
Ah well.
More good memories.
My computer died. I’m using Katt’s machine until I can get my beast in the shop.
I bought 1GB of RAM each for Katt’s amchine and my amchine. It installed flawlessly in Katt’s machine, but when I powered my computer up it seemed to go through the power up cycle but nothing was coming up on the monitor. So after many attempts at trying the RAm in different slots, and replacing the old RAM chip, it was still not working. I think my power supply may be farked up so I’m going to -gasp- bring it in to get checked out tomorrow.
No computer means no website updates because all my website files are on my machine.
In other news, I am planning an exciting new addition to my professional life.
I am so stuffed. I spent the entire weekend going from one family feast to another. I’ve eaten smoked pork roast, bbq chicken, chinese food, salads, dolamates, rice, decadent pie, cakes, desserts, beer, wine, and various other lovely concoctions.
I am going to spend tomorrow recuperating. I’m going to go to the gym in the morning if I wake up early enough and have a swim and gym, and have a light on the food day. Too. much. Food!
I’ve had a nice vacation but I am ready to come home now. The bed here is too small for Katt and I to sleep on together comfortably, so I put a mattress on the floor and I’ve been sleeping on the floor in a sleeping bag, which is better for space, but I wake up a tad sore in the morning. I am very ready to have my own bed again. I also haven’t seem the little girl in many many days and I feel the desire for much tanuki snuggling. I’ve got a lot of work to catch up on Wednesday too. We were going to do photos while in Victoria but we haven’t gotten around to it because we’ve been so busy. I hope we will have some time tomorrow. We need BBW photos in particular quite urgently, as well as foot fetish and BDSM photos.
Ok, I have to get inside the sleeping bag now. It’s getting very cold and I’m getting very tired.
I had a nap tonight from 8-10pm, which is very unusual for me. It might have had something to do with having woken up at 7am to take the dogs out, and filling my belly with wonderful beef stew and wine for dinner. Perhaps.
I had a fun day. I went to the gym for an hour, but skipped on swimming because I would have had to lift weights for another 30 minutes before the pool opened, and I had already done all my upper body exercises and didn’t feel like doing any more.
Katt and I went for coffee with family, and I picked up some lovely tomatos when we walked by a little organic grocery shop in Oak Bay. Katt made a feta vinagrette dressing for them - very very yummy! ik normally don’t eat many tomatoes because I usually don’t like the taste of crappy greenhouse tomatos, but these ones rocked.
The puppies are really enjoying having a fenced in yard to run around in. They play really vigorously for a few hours and then they poop out for a few hours. It’s cute.
I was chatting with my mom recently and she was talking about how she felt really young mentally but really old physically. In her words, “We’re getting old!”. My dad is 66 and my mom is 62, and Katt’s dad will be 70 this year. It’s really wierd to think that our parent’s lives are winding down. I wonder how many more years of coming to visit Katt’s family we’ll have left. I wonder if my folks will be around when I have property and a new business going. I’m not really close to my family like my sister is. She talks with my folks pretty much every day. I talk with them once or twice a month, sometimes every two months. Even though I don’t see them often, it’s nice to know that they’re there. They’re a constant in my life - they have always been there. It’s a strange thing to think of your parent’s mortality.
I don’t mind getting older so much, and dying doesn’t really bother me except in the sense that I want to know what happens to humanity - whether we will get our shit together or not.
I should close my eyes soon, considering the dogs will likely wake me up at 7am again. I’m feeling really aware of my mortality tonight, and some change seems more daunting than others. I think of our 5 year plan and I look at the little dog sleeping with her head on my arm and think that she’ll be 6 years old in 5 years, and Iggy will be 9. I’ll be 39. Katt will be 41. The youngest of us all will be Tanuki! But I think no matter how old we all get she’s still going to be the littlest. I wonder if she’ll still do the kitty cat dance.
Ok, off to sleep.
Ξ May 10th, 2005 | → Comments Off | ∇ General |
Yay! I’m going on Vacation for a week tomorrow. Katt and the doggies and I are going to visit family in Victoria. It’s a nice relaxing, and inexpensive, getaway. I’m hoping we can spend some time doing photos as well. I’d like to find a nice beach to take some video of Katt frolicking in the water and some other outdoorsy things. Video is good. I’m sad the little girl isn’t coming with us, but she has some work to do so she can’t get away.
Life has been decent lately. We’ve watched a few new movies, The Amityville Horror (which was much better than I expected), and National Treasure (which was a good consipracy movie). We’ve seen a few others but I can’t remember them, so they must not have been that exciting. Katt’s dental work is almost done. I’m really happy that we had saved up for unexpected expenses. it’s the first time we’ve been able to do that in many years and it’s paid off as we saved enough to cover her dental expenses. The poor girl had 11 cavities, 8 of which are now fixed, and a possible root canal and 3 fillings in her next (and final) visit. Ouch.
Katt’s computer has had problems with running out of memory when she’s batch processing images. When we get back into town I’m going to buy 1GB of memory for her machine and double her RAM from 768MB to 1.5Gb. Thankfully RAM is very cheap right now. I may get some for my machine too since I’ve been doing all that video editing lately. It can’t hurt. I was thinking of getting wireless cards for the desktop computers too, but I don’t want to shell out that cash right now. We have sporadic internet outages with our desktops because the computers are 50 feet of cable away from the nearest cable outlet, so the signal strength deteriorates by the time it travels through 50′ of cable and we get knocked off every now and again. Quite irritating during file transfers. I’ll get pci wireless cards eventually. Then I can just hook up the modem and router downstairs by the outlet and forget about all the wires and connectivity problems. Next month.
I’ve really been enjoying swimming and lifting weights. 90 minutes passes by so quickly. I lift weights for an hour, and then I swim for 30 minutes. I’ve already noticed an improvement in my swimming, and in my cardio. I can swim for much longer before getting fatigued. The first few times I spent most of my swim time re learning how to breathe. I think I swallowed a few litres of water trying to breathe properly the first day swimming. Blah. Blech. Yuck! I’ve got the kinks worked out now I think. I’m also enjoying seeng my muscle tone improve. I tend to tone quickly but I have a hard time gaininga lot of muscle mass. I just tend to get more defined rather than bigger. What I want to do is add a few inches to my chest and arms to balance out my torso. Either way, the exercise is good for me, and I do enjoy watching the cuties work out. Anyone who says they don’t watch people’s butts when they run on a treadmill or use the elliptical lies!
I was watching a story about WW II veterans on the news today, and I was suddenly hit with the enormity of the devastation and the horror caused by the war. I was watching the 75+ year old Canadian male and female vets tour towns and cities they had liberated from the Nazi’s 60 years ago, and I thought to myself that pretty soon all of these people will be gone, and WW II will become a memory of a memory, rather than a memory bright in the minds of those who experienced it. I don’t want anyone to ever forget the horror of genocide and of war, because I don’t want the same thing to happen again. The fact that there are still people in the world that believe in the ideals of the Nazi’s bothers and worries me. There is a neo-nazi party very active in Germany. There are neo-nazi groups in the United States and Canada.
That kind of hate just can’t be rationalized. Sure, I can understand why it happens psychologically, but I can’t understand it. To be so hurt, alone, and insecure that your hate for yourself turns outward so violently - it’s scary. That anyone could deny that the holocaust ever happened is unthinkable. The proof is undeniable and incontrovertable. And it should never. Ever. happen again.
I have been enjoying my new exercise routine. I have been going to the gym and lifting weights for an hour, followed by 30 minutes of swimming laps in the pool. The time passes quickly, which is great. I forgot how cardio intensive swimming is. I swim about 20-25 laps, but I have to take a break every two laps to catch my breath. I still haven’t gotten the hang of breathing without inhaling water when doing the front crawl. Eventually, I hope I can swim continuously for 30 minutes.
I’ve been reading a lot of bloggers talking about why they have or have not had or want children. I don’t want children. Katt and I are childless by choice, and the lovely Tanuki does not want children either (which I am happy about).
There are a lot of reasons why I don’t want to have a child. The primary reason being that I don’t have much to offer a child. I keep odd hours, I like my solitude, and I live a lifestyle particularly unsuited to having children. I wish more people thought about what they had to offer a child before they decided to have one, rather than how the child will fufill their needs or expectations. I don’t want the responsibility of having to wake up in the night to change dirty diapers or have to wake up at 5am to get my kids out the door for soccer practice. I don’t want to deal with the responsibilities that come along with children. Hence, I’ll never have one.
I watch episodes of The Nanny with Katt every now and again and I’m mortified at the situations people let themselves get into with kids. I can’t believe how clueless these people are. Then again there is no manual that goes along with raising a child, and parents don’t have to have even basic training on how to change a diaper, what food a baby needs as it grows or how to provide structure for a child as it grows. I’m of the opinion that all prospective parents should be required to take a course on parenting prior to having children. Maybe with a bit more proactive education we could make sure children and their families get a good start, and end up with less issues and more stability as they become adults. I like children a lot and think they really deserve the best life has to offer.
I have actually turned down dates from people in the past who have had children or who have wanted children. My choice doesn’t refelect on those people at all, because they were all for the most part great people, it simply reflects on my lack of interest in being a parent. I do enjoy being an uncle. That works for me. It’s extremely part time and there is no responsibility for the child involved.
I respect people who devote their time to raising their child well. It takes dedication, perseverence, patience, and a lot of love.
Me, I like to spread my love around by smacking the little girl in the ass, or wrapping her up in a cocoon and beating her until she squeals. Yummy. Of course I love my puppies too. I spend a good portion of my day with them either out for walks or cuddling on the sofa. And of course I kiss a Katt as often as I can.
So it wasn’t toast. my next door neighbor got robbed by someone he had met and was having a cocaine binge with. How did I find this out? Well, sad next door neighbor, who I’d only ever seen pnce or twice before, knocked on my door and asked if he could use my phone. Sure, no problem, didn’t know the story so I let him use my phone in the hall outside my place. He told me how he met a woman and she brought a bunch of her friends to stay over and how they all robbed him while he was sleeping. A few minutes later two VPD guys come down the hall and say “Mr so and so, we have more reports that you’ve been throwing rocks and glass at the drug dealers in your alley”. A cop pulled me aside and asked if I knew the guy, which I don’t and wouldn’t want to, and said he’d been on a cocaine binge for the whole weekend and after he’d been robbed, which would piss anyone off, was throwing things at the guys who robbed him, who are still in the alley behind the building.
Such a fun neighborhood.
Ξ May 2nd, 2005 | → Comments Off | ∇ General |
of a fire alarm at 5:30 in the morning makes me figure there was a really stupid person making toast.
